Singer-Songwriter Sarah Faith Inspires You to Choose Your Legacy

In this episode: 

Sarah Faith, an upcoming and incredibly talented Nashville-based singer-songwriter, joins Christina this week to talk about the decisions she has made to get herself from a physically and emotionally abusive childhood to building a path to musical success and personal healing. Sarah is a golden example of “pulling the trigger” to get where she KNOWS she needs to be. This episode will give you chills so tune in and share this one with your friends. 

Christina Lecuyer’s Bio:

Christina Lecuyer is a former Professional Golfer, a three-time reality television competitor, Confidence + Mindset Coach, Motivational Speaker, and Founder of Women with C.L.A.S.S. Mastermind, as well as Decide It’s Your Turn: Women’s Weekend. Christina’s mission in life is to empower people to fully live in their purpose, confidently and successfully! 

Sarah Faith’s Bio:

Sarah Faith is a Nashville-based singer-songwriter who was born in Michigan. She began songwriting as a natural progression from writing poetry as a child to cope with her tough childhood. Her music is proof that you can use your past hardships for good things and is what she calls #MeaningfulMusic. She is also the creator of the Choose Your Legacy movement, which seeks to spread the message that we are all not only capable, but also responsible for stepping into our purpose, regardless of previous setbacks or fears of failure. 

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Full Episode Transcript from Episode with Sarah Faith: 

Christina: Welcome back to the Decide It’s Your Turn podcast, you guys. I am so freaking stoked to have my guest here today. 

She is not only just a friend of mine, she is a client of mine and she is an amazing human being, which I know I’ve told her this a thousand times that she is actually going to become so famous at one blink of an eye. We don’t know yet when that’s going to happen, but it’s going to be one blink of an eye. 

For so long, we’ve talked about so many things in our friendship and our business relationship and I’ve always promised her. I was like as much success as myself and perhaps some of my other clients have had, or other people that we’ve talked about, this person, 100%, in a blink of an eye, will go from “Oh, my gosh, I don’t know who that is too!” to “Oh my gosh. How on the planet do you not know who Sarah Faith is?”

And today I’m so excited to have you! How are you?!  

Sarah: Yay! Oh my God, what an intro! Can I, I mean, it is recorded, so I guess that’s good, but I need to get that in a little clip. And when I wake up in the morning, it’s going to say, “How does everyone not know who Sarah Faith is?” 

Christina: Exactly. How does everyone not know Sarah Faith is? Well, you guys that have followed me for a long time on social media you probably know who Sarah faith is because not only is she a client of mine, she has become such a good friend of mine. Her and her husband are actually friends with myself and my husband and her journey has been pretty incredible. That’s obviously what this podcast is about. It’s all about deciding it is your turn and along Sarah’s life, she has had a ton of decisions that she has had to make. But before we dive into all of those decisions and how some of the decisions that she’s made has actually blessed her life and how it could be very much instrumental to your life. I’d love for you to introduce yourself, Sarah, besides the fact that you’re a friend and a client. So could not tell the world if they don’t happen to know who you are, who the hell you are and why the hell you’re amazing. 

Sarah: Okay. Well thank you so much for allowing me this opportunity because this is also, as you already know, things like this are growth opportunities for me. But my name is Sarah Faith and I live in Nashville currently with my husband. We moved here literally on a whim a little more than a year ago from Michigan.

I know that we always knew we were going to move south because we’re both Midwesterners and when we met, we were like, “Okay, just so you know, this Midwest thing is not where we’re going to die.” It’s too cold. The people are too cranky. We’re out. And we were both like, “Yes, that’s exactly what we’re going to do.”

So that’s what we did. We didn’t know exactly the form or fashion it was going to come in, but that’s besides the point. So I’m a singer-songwriter and like I said, I live in Nashville. So, yeah, I’m literally just chasing the hell out of my dreams. I know for a fact I can cuss on this podcast, so it doesn’t matter.

Christina: Ain’t that the fucking truth! Absolutely. I didn’t even know what the Explicit, the E beside the podcasts even meant, but I was like, the minute I knew, I was like, “Oh, well, they can just plaster that right beside my name.”

Sarah: It says it right next to your channel. The Decide It’s Your Turn podcast, “E”.  

Christina: Absolutely a hundred percent, you know, one thing that you just said there in your intro that you like, “Oh, that’s beside the point.”

That is actually not the truth. That is I think one of the very first big decisions that you’ve made, well, obviously there’s plenty of decisions before that, but that was probably a very instrumental decision in getting you to where you are right now, on the path to definite stardom in the industry and so many awesome things are coming down the line for you.

But that decision to basically uproot yourselves in a blink of an eye. Do you want to talk about that? Because I think it’s a really, really important part of where you are today and the fast action you take. 

Sarah: Sure. I think as I’ve done different events with you and hung out with you and talked in mastermind groups and things like that, it’s been affectionately coined that I’m the pull, the trigger girl.

I’m just the girl that pulls the trigger. It’s not like I don’t feel fear, it’s just if I’m feeling fear and it feels like it’s holding me back, that’s the time to push on the gas pedal. So for us, we were in Michigan, like I said, and literally two winters ago I was shoveling the driveway, which makes me want to barf just saying it, but I was shoveling the driveway and I was like, I looked at Ryan and I was like, “Ryan, if I have to shovel this driveway, one more time, I’m going to throw this shovel through the window. I’ve had it.” 

And we were like, “Okay, she’s just being dramatic. She’s going to be fine.” So it moved into June and July. And I was sitting with a band in Michigan and I was having a blast, but I just felt like I was being pulled to do something, something else and something solo.

We actually took a trip to Nashville as a band. And I remember when the van, we were in a van all together. Me, little old me and a bunch of dudes, like awkward, awful, stinky. We crossed the state line and to Tennessee. And I remember feeling this overwhelming, just peace. And I was like, I think I just drove over the state line of my home.

It was strange and I told Ryan about it. I was like, “Ryan, when I just crossed over into Tennessee, I literally felt like that was home.” And he was like, “Okay.” We kind of put on the back burner. 

Okay. So then in July, this is July of 2018. He goes, I’m just going to get a realtor over here and see what our house is worth. Cause we had put a ton of work into our house. We redid floors, we took down cabinets, we did all kinds of shit. So we got a realtor over and what she thought we could get for our house was way more than what we thought we would list our house for. We were like, “Oh shit. Like, is this go-time?” And she looked at us and she was like, “I think I might even have a buyer for you.”

We were like, this is funny. We were like, “Okay, well, bring them over then.” AND SO SHE DID! She brought them over. And we were like, “Oh my God, what is happening? Like, is our house about to sell?” Well, they didn’t buy it, but then she was like, “No, I literally have. Like she was the realtor for that city. She specializes in that city.

So she’s got a list of people that she talks to or whatever. The second group of people that she brought in the house bought it with a cash offer. And we were like, um, our house wasn’t even on the market yet. And now we actually don’t have one, so we need to find one. So Ryan had actually come down with me to the CMA Fest when I was playing with the band. And one of the bartenders that we met was oddly a realtor, which was very strange. So we contacted her and we were like, “Hey, look, we really need some help finding a house. We actually just sold our house. So if we could find one to buy, that’d be amazing.” And we found one and we did not come see it in person. We bought it on FaceTime. 

Christina: Amazing. 

Sarah: Yes. We literally had her come into this house that I’m sitting in right now and we had her knock on the granite countertops and show me the soft, close cabinets in the kitchen and show me my walk-in closet and all this shit and we were like, “We should just put in an offer because everything is getting bought up.”

Everything that we wanted to buy was like, “Oh, sorry, it’s under contract.” What? Fuck this! So we put in a full cash offer. She was like, “Are you sure?” We were like, “Yes, do it!” So he did it the first time that my husband actually saw this house was after he had already signed it and the moving truck was pulling into the driveway, dropping off all our shit.

So I was like, ‘Let’s take the tour, babe!” He was like, “Okay.” And now we live in Nashville!

Christina: There’s just so many things coming up for me from that, because I just think that, number one, you listened to your gut. Number two, like you said, you took fast action. You pulled the trigger, whatever the hell you want to call it.

And I think SO many people in this world, that is one thing that I’m huge on – we’ve talked about it a thousand times, is you have to make a decision and there’s no wrong decisions. You decided it was your turn. You guys pull the trigger, like sold, sold thank you, ma’am, move in.

I think so many people hold themselves back from doing something that it seems like such a big deal, but what was the worst thing that was going to happen? You get to Nashville and you go, “Oh, well, shit, we don’t like this house. We’ll find another one.” But, again, that one decision that you had to make has led you to make hundreds and hundreds of other decisions that have gotten you to where you are now.

And it all started with you just being like, nope, fast action. We’re just going to do it. We’ll just see what happens. 

Sarah: Yeah. And I think too, something that you and I talk about a lot is, we didn’t have a plan B because I really believe, I had a photography company that I had started from the ground up and I was making good income and I had made it for five years and I ditched it because I wanted to do songwriting and I wanted to be a musician because photography wasn’t lighting me up anymore and I easily could have been like, oh, but I can’t leave my company. I just built this from the ground up or I could have done what a lot of people said and said, oh, are you just going to take your company down there with you and just shoot families and try to build your clientele up when you get down there.

And I was like, no, because if I do that, I can’t keep my feet in two ponds at one time. I will drown. 

Christina: Oh, so good!! 

Sarah: So much of my heart I put into my stuff. And if I divide that and start mixing up my energy, I will be up Shit’s Creek without a paddle. I just can’t. I knew that I couldn’t do that. So I just, we didn’t have a plan B. Just what you said, if we have to sell the house, fuck, we’ll sell the house. You know, if I have to get a job at Starbucks, I’ll get a job to start. Whatever, I’ll figure it out. But right now I don’t have a plan B, this is it. 

Christina: That’s so good, Sarah, so good. You know, this is one of the reasons why I just was like, when we first started this podcast, I said, you have to be on here. Not only because you’re a client of mine, not all my clients are always going to be on this podcast, but there’s something different about you. There’s something that you said the first day that we actually met. So Sarah came to my Decide It’s Your Turn event in Austin, Texas a few years ago and her husband randomly followed me online.

He was a golfer. I was a golfer and he bravely reached out to me. She didn’t know who the hell I was and he sure as hell didn’t know the events that I put on. And he’s like, “Hey, I just feel like my wife would really be able to use this event. Should I buy her a ticket?” And I was like, “Um, hell yes.”

Oh my God. So to all the men out there: Yes. 100% buy the tickets. Do the things because it is totally fast-forward both of their lives, but I remember the one thing and everyone at that event, there were over a hundred people there that day. And you stood up and said something in that audience that to this day, every person in that building remembers. And I think it’s really, really impactful. It was impactful to every single one of us and not everything was remembered that day. 

But what you said was really, really important that day. And I think it kind of loops around to everything that we’re just talking about right now in your songwriting and your move, your fast action. Do you want to tell everyone what you said that day? Cause I think it’s so, so important. 

Sarah: Yes, I will try because I think when I was in that moment, everything was kind of a blur and I was trying to make sense of like – I’ll say that was my first self-help outside of therapy.

That was the first time I had done anything that wasn’t clinical or like someone that could possibly prescribe me drugs to fix me.

I just have found so many benefits from this realm, I will say. So I was sitting there and it was a weekend event and I was thinking to myself, there’s all these women that are gorgeous and fucking slaying life. They’re just doing everything. And I’m just like, “Holy shit. I want to do shit like that.”

I want to impact people. I want to do the things, but how do I know that I’m like them? I mean, yes, we’re humans. Like we both wear pants and socks and whatever the hell, but how do I know that I get to do that. And so I just tried to think of how to put that in like a sentence without being so angry.

Um, so like, I think I stood up and I said something to the effect of, correct me if I’m wrong, but I think I said something to the fact like, “There’s a hundred people in this room. And a lot of people on the stage are saying,” excuse me, burping is a thing.

Christina: Only you, Sarah Faith! 

Sarah: Put it in there! Don’t edit it out. 

Christina: No, no, no, never gonna edit that out because I want you all to go and you’ll be able to follow Sarah. It’s SarahFaith_Music on Instagram, follow this woman. She’s one of the most beautiful people on the planet and acts like a dude, like 90% of the time. That’s the reason why we get along so well. But yeah. 

Sarah: Yes, yes. I am a perfumed dude. That is correct. So I stood up because I just kept hearing them say things like, “You get to make the decision, you can do this, you get to do whatever you want to do and you are going to impact the world.” And I was like, “Me? Me??” You don’t know where I come from, who I am, like, you don’t know who that girl is or whatever.

So I was really confused and I stood up and I said like, “How do I know that I’m different? You are telling us all that we’re different because we’re in this room. But are really all hundred of us really that different, am I really that different? Like how do we know that?“

Christina: Yeah. And it was so, so good.

And I thought it was like one of the most amazing questions we’d all heard. And in that instance, I’m pretty sure it was myself and maybe one of my guests on the stage with me. But I think the answer was the fact that there’s hundreds of millions of people in this world. And you had the wherewithal to be a person who decided it was your turn to do something. And you kept taking the action that 99% of the people won’t do. 

I’ve had hundreds of people work with me over the years, and there’s a reason why you are where you are, Sarah. And that is because you consistently pull the trigger, as you call it, decide, as I call it and you take the action and have the unwavering faith. 

Sarah: Yeah.

Christina: That is why you will succeed. That is why you will have the breakthroughs. That is the reason why you are where you are today. This is one of the main reasons why I do what I do, is I want people to understand you not only have to decide it’s your turn, but then you have to have the unwavering faith AND take the action. And that was the difference. That is the reason why you have the success you have and will have the tremendous amount of success that you will be coming into very soon is because you take consistently fast action. You consistently pull the trigger. You consistently do the hard things.

And so when you said that in the room, it was like, everyone’s like, “Oh yeah, yeah. Why us?” Well, there were only a hundred people in that room who pulled the trigger, who decided on themselves, who bought the ticket, who got in that room, who took the action, who paid attention, who did all the things. That’s it, that’s the secret. 

So many people just think that you and I have these fucking secrets that we’re keeping in our back pocket. 

Sarah: I’m keeping mine in my armpits. 

Christina: I’m like, “Oh bitch, you don’t know, but we all know the secret.” Wrong. The secret is that. And I just thought it was so monumental when you said that and what most people didn’t know about you and I didn’t even know about you that day, that I obviously now know and one of the other secret sauces that you have, and I’d love for us to touch on this a little bit is where you came from. 

Where you came from versus where the fuck you are. And this is so, so important. I get so passionate about this because so many people could look at you, Sarah, because you know, obviously this is just audio, but like I said, go follow @SarahFaith_Music on Instagram right now, if you don’t or Sarah Faith Music on Facebook.

Sarah is fucking gorgeous. She has unbelievable talent and her eyebrows are pretty much to fucking die. Let’s be real, people love your fucking hair and your eyebrows. Like if you do not follow Sarah for any other reason, just follow her just specifically for her hair and eyebrows, and it’ll be worth every second.

But all that to be sad, you have such a story that I think is really. It’s the main reason why you wake up every day and why you do this. And I think people need to know this about you because it’s easy for someone to look at you and be like, “Oh yeah, yeah. Easy for her to say.” 

Sarah: Yeah. And I think it’s really important, like you’re saying is I’m going to get into it for sure, but I don’t have any magical talent. The eyebrows were learned on YouTube and an eyebrow tutorial has been begged from me on multiple occasions. It will be coming to an IGTV near you. You can do it right in your living room, people. I promise! The hair is a product of being an only child and just fucking having all the time in the world to learn how to French braid and all that shit. It’s really a sad story. I just had no friends, I was doing nothing else. I was learning how to do my hair. Like go me, like whatever.

Okay. So I grew up. Oh, this is where we tone it down. My parents divorced when I was five and my mom, obviously the mom normally gets custody of the child unless there is a very obvious reason why that should not be the case. But my mom was an abusive alcoholic. So from the ages of 7 to 12, my dad and I got into a custody battle with my mom because I started begging my dad to just please do something. I didn’t even, I was like seven, I didn’t know what the options were, but I knew that I couldn’t keep living like that if I wanted to, not to be dramatic, but live. I mean I wasn’t living. I was in fear every time I came home from school, I was making my own lunches.

I was raising myself at the age of seven. My mom was drunk in the morning. I’m putting myself on the bus. She couldn’t keep a job. We were moving all the time. It was atrocious. And I just remember being like “Dad, you don’t really understand what goes on when you’re not there. You dropped me off and my life turns to shit. It turns to absolute hell. She smokes like a damn chimney. She’s drinking all the time. She’s too drunk to realize that she needs to put clothes on to walk around the fucking house.” She was just a hazard to herself, much less having a child.

And I mean that in the most enduring way possible, because if you know me at all and you know my stance on addiction, I know that my mother and her addiction are two separate things, but the problem is the addiction was so present that my childhood was a hell and that’s not okay. It’s not okay when her problems with her adult life become my issue at seven years old. 

So my dad and I fought really hard to change custody. It took us five years because they kept giving me back to my mom. I would move to my dad’s house and I remember one instance, I was in fourth grade and I had started school at my dad’s house and two weeks in, my dad picked me up from school in a suit from court and he was crying and I was like, “What? This is supposed to be a good day. You were going to court today. We were supposed to win today.” And I had to go home and pack up my shit and go back to my mom’s house. 

We just couldn’t win. We just couldn’t figure it out. And then when I was 12, we filed for one more and that was the age when I could actually give my own testimony to the judge.

So I went in and I gave testimony for what had been happening to me over the past five to seven years. And when my mom heard that we were going to court again, she called me up and she said, “Sarah, I don’t know what kind of bullshit you and your dad are trying to pull, but I want you to know that you win, you can pick up your shit in garbage bags, I’ll put it in the street. You’re not welcome in this house anymore.” And I was like, “Oh, okay.” 

So as a 12 year old girl, the only thing that I was trying to do was get my life on some sort of track and stop being physically and emotionally abused. And somehow that turned out to be my problem. So that has played a part in, I’ll say, pretty much my whole life and patterns I’m still trying to break to this day of just feeling like anything that went wrong for me in my life was my fault. 

I was kicked out of my house at 12 for trying to do the right thing. So I mean, that just, it sparked just a ton of depression and anxiety, not knowing what the fuck I was doing or where I was going or what was messed up about me.

What was wrong with me to where my mom would do that to me. And I mean, I was suicidal. My room at my dad’s house was on the second story. There were multiple times that I thought about jumping out the window. This is really deep, but that’s okay. My dad walked in on me one day as I was self-harming myself, because I just didn’t know what to do with all the pain that I was dealing with. I didn’t know where to put it. So I took it out on myself and he was scared shitless and I felt so guilty because he fought to save my life and I was cutting myself and it was just like, “What are you doing?” I was just in such a mess. So yeah, that’s the bulk of what happened to lead me into all the depression and anxiety stuff, you know?

Christina: Obviously, this is it. We started out so bubbly, but we turned to this and I just think everything happens for a purpose and a reason. And obviously I know all this about you, and I think it’s really important for people to hear this, because I know that there’s going to be one person that listens to this podcast that goes, “Holy fuck. I’ve had those same situations” or, “Oh my God, I’m in that situation.” Or “How did that woman get out of that situation and get to where she is today?” And obviously I know you, I know that you being here today, your whole entire purpose on this planet is to just use your music to serve others who have been in these situations.

Obviously we didn’t have at all situations that look the same, but for my low, low, and your low, low, what was the defining moment where you said, “Okay, I’m deciding now it’s my turn to do something different. I’m deciding now that my past does not dictate my future”? Because I know that there’s so many people out there listening, going “How in the fuck did you go from wanting to kill yourself to now being a Nashville recording artist? How does that happen?

Sarah: Honestly, I just have to get all the credit to Jesus. I mean, honestly, I didn’t grow up in a Christian home, by any means. But I knew, I just felt like there was just something always that just told me there was something better. And that’s probably the best way I can describe it when I was younger, because like I say, everything was such a mess. I wanted it to end. I wanted it so badly to end and it didn’t feel like there was anything that I could do or anything that I could say or anyone I could talk to that was going to make it better or make me feel better. I mean, therapists, whatever the fuck. I couldn’t find anything that made me feel okay or like I was okay.

And I think it was a mixture of holding on to the fact that there is hope in the world. Somehow, even though I didn’t know what the fuck I was going to come from. To this day, even if you take just a tiny step, it’s better than no steps. So like, okay. I’m sitting in my room by myself and I’m really contemplating jumping out that window.

Even if I just sit here for one more minute and don’t, I win for one more minute. So, and even if I pull my notebook out and write about how I feel like doing that, but I don’t actually do that, I’m still winning. And it literally was as infantile as that at that point in my life. Even if I just sit here and sit on my hands and don’t do anything. That’s better than me, like unlocking the window. It’s crazy how small the steps sometimes can be. And now it’s okay. 

So even if something really fucked my day up and I’m really pissed about it, I can be mad, but I used to go into a deep depression. It used to be the end of the world for shit to hit the fan.

But now if it lasts for three hours, it lasts for three hours. But at least I don’t ever think about jumping out the window again, because I’ve taken such tiny steps and they just add up over time. You just feel like, “Oh my God, I’m not even doing anything. I’m sitting here doing nothing.” But when you’re depressed, sometimes doing nothing is the best you can do and you just, you just have to do the best you can do. 

Christina: This is so, so, so good because people sometimes are like, “How, how do I get there? How do I get to this point? How do I, how do I go from where I am to where I want to be?” And I think you hit the nail on the head. It is a journey of doing the smallest things over and over and over. People always used to ask me, like, “How did you do this? How did you go from not wanting to live, not feeling like you had a purpose to now seeing that you have literally the best life ever because you choose it?” And honest to God, my bad days, just like yours, my bad days could have lasted days, weeks. Now it’s exactly what you’re talking about.

My bad days sometimes turn into bad one hours, bad 15 minutes, maybe even a bad five hours, but we know how to get ourselves out of it. We know that it will not last forever. And we know that the bad days then become bad hours, bad 15 minutes. And I think that that’s something that most people just don’t talk about.

They think that it goes from zero to 60 and it’ll go away and it’ll be fine. You and I both still have bad days. We have bad shit happened to us all the fucking time 

Sarah: I throw tantrums. I cry. I tell Ryan I’m angry. I looked at him the other day. He was so confused. I looked at him and I was like, “Babe, I’m just angry and I don’t know why, and I don’t have a reason, but I know that I’m just so angry and I’m pissed off and I don’t know what to do about it.” Because I’m just crying in bed and he’s like, “Um, what do I do?”

Christina: Oh my God. Nathan does the same thing. I was like, “Don’t talk to me. I’m so mad at you right now.” He’s like, “I just walked through the door. What should I do?” I go, “I’m just mad. I just need a minute. Leave me alone.” 

This is a good one because I really want to know, what do you do in those moments? Because I know I have literally told Nathan sometimes I’m like, don’t talk to me. Don’t come near me. Don’t touch me. Like literally, he walked through the door and he’s like, “Oh my God, this is a psycho bitch. What did you do with my wife?” And I’m like, “Don’t talk to me. I’m going for a walk and I’ll be back.” And I’m sure in his mind, he’s like you can fucking stay gone as long as you want, chick, cause you’re fucking psycho.

Sarah: There’s the door! And once you leave, I’m locking it! 

Christina: Exactly, exactly. I know now that I have to be vocal with him, I have to say to him, “Listen, I’m not mad at you, but I definitely need some space. I’m really stressed out and angry and pissed off, and I’m going for a walk.” And for me, 45 minutes later, even after the first 43 minutes of the walk, I’m still mad and I’m still pissed and I’m still wanting to tear his head off.

Usually towards the end of the walk, I can come home and be like, “Hey, just so you know, I am a raving bitch. I apologize. I’m better now. And I appreciate the fact that you let me go and walk and understood that I needed that minute.” How does it work for you? 

Sarah: Yeah. So for me, it’s usually just that I just sometimes need to fucking cry and I’m just not a crier by nature, so it doesn’t just come naturally to me. I really have to get to a boiling point. And, unfortunately, once I reached that boiling point, I turned into a blubbering cursing, fucking idiot. I should say I can’t control it. 

Christina: I think I’ve seen that girl, though.

Sarah: You probably have! Yeah, you just bring it out in me, bitch! 

Christina: That’s what you pay me for!

Sarah: And I’ll spend it again and again. My husband is a natural communicator. He’s amazing at communicating. And he is a talker and that is one thing that we’ve had to learn about our relationship. Bubbly as I am, I’m actually a pretty introverted extrovert. I don’t like to always talk when I’m pissed off. I don’t, I’m quiet. I’m really quiet. And that’s probably pretty scary for him. 

But so he wants to talk it out and he doesn’t want to fight. He just wants to talk about it. He wants to know, he wants to ask questions and something that we’ve really had to learn in our relationship is sometimes he needs to, as bitchy as this makes me sound, sometimes he needs to ask for permission to ask all those questions because I’ll start crying and I’ll just say, “I’m angry.” And he’s like, “Do you want to talk about it?” And you can tell he’s like dipping a pinky in the water. Like, do you want to talk about it?

And if I’m like, “NO!” He’s like, “Okay, okay. Then we won’t.” And it’s good because he allows me to be myself, but then almost like clockwork in about three to five minutes of me bawling my eyes out and baring my face into my blankets and all that shit. I will just start blubbering, I’ll just start saying things even if they don’t make God’s greatest amount of sense.

I’ll say, “I just really am disappointed in this and I know that I shouldn’t be.” I think my biggest thing, especially now that I’m chasing such a huge dream, and I just feel like I have such a massive purpose. My biggest hangups now are like, “Am I doing enough? Am I enough period?”

And, is there something else I should be doing and why isn’t stuff happening? So it’s really become a lot for me about relinquishing control and I think for someone like me that has not really controlled my life up until now, but I’ve kind of had to put my big girl pants on and take control of a lot of things.

I had to put my big girl pants on and go take pictures of my mom’s room, laid with empty bottles so that we could give it to the court system. I had to put my big girl pants on and deal with my mom’s death when she died four years ago. And then my grandma’s and then my uncles, because they all chose me as their representative.

And my other part of the family was not happy about that at all. There’s been a lot of times when I’ve had to put on my big girl pants and just flex my muscles a little bit and then get through it by doing that. But musically, it doesn’t work that way. My purpose doesn’t work that way. I can’t control God’s will. I can’t control the universe’s plan.

And sometimes I will admit that makes me mad. That makes me MAD and I cry, but you got to give it up. It’s so hard! 

Christina: Oh my God. That is so hard. It is so hard but sometimes too, I also think, and I’m sure you’ll agree with me here is, oftentimes, I find that a lot of the times we want something to happen and God actually has a bigger plan for us if we would actually relinquish the control. Because I think so often that is what happens to us is, we go, “God, it’s got to happen this way. It’s gotta happen this way. It’s got to happen this way.” 

I always go back and obviously you’re a country music singer, so I always go back to, I think it’s who is it, George Strait’s song? Or no Garth Brooks song about unanswered prayers, right? Like in the moment you think “Oh, God, it has to happen this way. This is the best way for it to happen.” And then you look back five years and you’re like, “Oh God.” 

I have looked back on certain things in my career, in my business career, in my golf career, in my life. I remember literally thinking that if I didn’t get this job opportunity on television, that it was like my life was over and now it brings tears to my eyes to think, “Oh my God, if I would’ve gotten that, I wouldn’t have gotten this.”

Sarah: Yeah!

Christina: You know what I mean? So sometimes that’s it, right? It’s like you think we have it all fixed up in this little box and God just gives it to me in this little box and it’ll all work out so perfect. And I’ll be so happy. And yet God is like what are you doing? That’s like a little penny box. I’ve got this massive box waiting for you if you let me have the fucking control. 

Sarah: Yes. Yes. I totally agree. And actually something that you said the other day, I wrote down and have been carrying with me for the past few days to help me with things like this. And it was something along the lines of, I think you heard it in a podcast or something. Oh, it was from your coach when you had that sit down with your coach and it was like, there are jobs that I am meant to do. Jobs that you are meant to do. And there are jobs that God is meant to do. And don’t you dare get those confused because my jobs and God’s jobs are two separate things. 

And also something that really kind of brings me back down to earth when I’m getting all in a tiz and all emotional and all that bullshit is for all the possibilities that I can think of in my little pea-sized brain, I would’ve never known how to create the planet earth.

I would’ve never known how the fuck to make a hippopotamus. I don’t know how to do that shit. God knows how to do that shit. I don’t know how to do that shit. So like for me thinking I’ve got it all worked out in my head and I got all the possibilities lined up like little dominoes. Like, no, there are so many more possibilities that we can’t even imagine.

We’re not capable. So just be responsible for what you’re supposed to be responsible for. 

Christina: Oh my God. I love it. I think that this episode is going to just be so magical for so many people just because not only do I just love you as a human being. I know everyone who’s following you is going to love you, but your story and the impact that you’re making and who you are as a human being and the reasons why you show up every single day and do the small things that have gotten you where you are. Literally, I know that your and my  dream for you of where you’re going is actually not even as fucking good as where it’s going.

And it really isn’t. Because everything that has led up to this place, like we get so excited the other day. And obviously we can’t talk a lot about it on this podcast because it’s not official as of yet.

Sarah: But I want to, but I just can’t! . 

Christina: I want to so fucking bad! 

Sarah: Oh my God. I have never been more thankful for you being my friend. And when you call me screaming your fucking face off, I put the phone down and I was like, that’s the kind of friends I fucking want in my life. Let’s go. And I was ready to like run through a building for you.

Christina: Oh my God. You know, it was so funny. I was on a call with another client when you FaceTimed me like three times and I told my client why I was like, Oh my God, my client that has been my client for two years or my friend. I was like, I think she’s just going to tell me something really, really amazing. This is so good. I’m crying. My other client’s crying. She doesn’t know. She’s like, Oh my God. And like, I’m like, don’t worry I cry for you like this too. This is so amazing. 

I adore you. Really you have something special about you and it’s interesting cause I think one of the first times that we were talking, you had said, I don’t feel that special.

And yet it’s pretty amazing before we hit record today, you actually said something that I thought was pretty damn amazing about yourself and it actually makes me want to cry. What did you say?

Sarah: I’m doing the thing that we can’t really talk about and it makes me want to cry. I just dealt with such a poor image of myself, basically my whole life. And there’ve been people that have been like, “Oh, you’re so special. You’re so beautiful. You’re so cool. You’re funny. You’re blah, blah, blah.” 

And I pretty much never get it, ever. I pretty much am like, “You’re full of shit.” I’m just a normal human. There’s nothing special about me. But I’m making some content for this opportunity that I have and I was reviewing it with my husband, cause he’s my sounding board. And I looked at him and I was very, very serious. And I said, “How could it not be me? How could it not be me?” I have a lot of things going for me and I don’t know that I’ve ever really felt that way about myself. 

Christina: Oh, I literally just want to end it right there. I always ask everyone one last question though. So I definitely have to ask you the question, cause I think it’ll be a good one, but I want everyone to hear that. I want everyone to hear that. How old are you now? 30? 31? 

Sarah: 31! I don’t look a day over 22. 

Christina: I know, you lucky bitch. I’m like, no, no. 

Sarah: It’s not for lack of trying. Give me like 5 years. I spent so much time in the sun with soccer and I don’t give a shit about sunscreen. 

Christina: Wait until you’re my age! Yeah. You’re gorgeous. But anyway, I just think that it’s pretty amazing to think that after 30 something years of really just disliking yourself and not being at that point, you were able to do that. And I think it’s one of the most incredible things and I’m just honored to be your coach, blessed to be your friend.

I’m so excited for you. I cannot wait to see what this world has in store for you. 

Okay. So the final question is what is one decision you were afraid to make, but once you finally made it, it ended up better than you expected, or if it was shittier than you expected, what lesson did you learn? 

Sarah: Okay. This is actually such a hard question for me, because I think my journey has been made up of so many decisions. I mean, if we replay this episode, there’s probably 30 decisions.

But I think that the decision to just pack up all our shit and move proved a lot to me about myself, about Ryan and about us as a couple. I will say that we’ve only been down here for a little over a year and shit was not always smooth. 

Once we moved, we had just got married. We were dealing with a huge transition. I was dealing with three people’s estates that had passed away in 18 months and it was a shit show. 

We had to look each other in the eye and figure some shit out with our marriage, but I will say that making that decision to move has probably been the best decision that we’ve ever made just because it taught us so many lessons, good and bad. 

And I think a lot of people think that we’re crazy for that. And I just so often want to grab them and be like, “You can do it!” You put the shit in the boxes, you put the boxes on the truck, the truck drives them to the house. You drive to the house, you take the shit out of the boxes.

It takes a while, but you just do it and then you’re done. And then you live someplace that brings you so much joy and you live your life. 

Christina: So, so good. I love you, adore you! Tell them where to find you, because if they’re not obsessed, they’re obviously not my people. So. 

Sarah: If you’re not obsessed, you’re wrong. I’m just kidding. And if being obsessed is wrong, I don’t want to be right.

Okay. So first of all, I love you and I adore you as well. And I’m so fucking thankful that my husband sent me away two years ago. Thank you, Ryan, for being like, “I don’t want you to think that I’m sending you away, but I kind of am like, you need to go.” It’s like, “Okay, you’re right.” So yeah, it’s just really set me on a trajectory of having like fucking boss friends, man. I’m so blessed. 

But I spend most of my time on Instagram, @SarahFaith_Music because the other one was taken, unfortunately. But there’s pets. There’s goats, there’s music, there’s husband shenanigans. 

Christina: And don’t forget the eyebrow and hair tutorials. People should be tuning in. 

Sarah: Yes. So, I don’t know if your hair enthusiastic or makeup enthusiast. I certainly never thought I wouldn’t be because I am a dude. But all that, here we are. Oh, and we like to golf a lot, so I don’t know if that matters. 

Christina: Oh my God yes! 

Sarah: Yeah, dude. But I spent some time on Facebook as well. I have a fan club if you’re interested in joining the legacy, which we haven’t even talked about, but that’s fine. People can figure out what the legacy is when they go and find me. 

Christina:  We’ll just have to have you back. 

Sarah: That sounds good to me. Just have me back cause this movement is going to explode.

Christina: Choose your legacy. Sarah Faith Music. Love you, chat with you soon! 

Sarah: Okay! 

Christina: Bye!